It's april again. And it's april's fool. Just feel that so far, the year has been well, fooling me. Kind of. Just now as i visited a blog which i have not visited since last year, the same feelings come back to me. Again i question myself, what did I do to deserve this? I haven't wronged her in any way. Was I too nice? Or simply too foolish? Then again, perhaps it just goes to show how insignificant her presence will be in my life.

Perhaps this year will be a year where i will really learn alot. I will get used to people who disappear without a trace. I will get used to people who just do things in ways i cannot comprehend. At the same time, i still have to thank God for pulling me through all these, healing me much faster than i thought. Made me get over my loss, which i used to have alot of difficulty letting go.

And it will be your birthday again. I will still wish you on your birthday. I will still ponder over the times, but I won't really care about how you are getting on anymore. Because it really shouldn't matter. I will remember your birthday, and you will remember mine, but we will both know it's fake anyway.